About a month ago I entered an Instagram competition (just because) that was put on by a London based photography group and won the second price – a free photoshoot booking + free photos.
However, on the weekend that I was supposed to have done said shoot I fell ill and considered giving the prize to a friend or family member as suggested by the photographer. Withal, none of the persons I contacted were interested; whether they thought it wasn’t legit or some other reason so I literally regarded the opportunity as gone. To my surprise, at the end of July the photographer contacted me stating that although my prize had expired they were willing to extend it but it by another 30 days. At first, I thought this has got to be too good to be true but at second thought I said by all means let me take advantage of this because opportunities like these don’t happen often.
To cut a longgggg story short, I decided to kill two birds with one stone on a day I was going in Central London and had such a blast that I’ve come to the following realisations;
What is for you will be for you! Never try to pass on your blessing or gift because you feel undeserving or aren’t ready. When I won the prize I was ill but I also felt underserving as I never considered myself photogenic or “good-looking” mainly because of my being partially visually impaired. I tried to give away/ pass on something that was clearly meant for me and whether by the powers that be or some other fons et origo it was there for me to have in the end.
We sometimes judge our appearances based off of our phone selfies or societal standards of beauty but I have come to realise that my aesthetic is too dope to be based or governed by conventional calibre or the tiny lens that can cause barrel/ lens distortion.
When you love yourself and truly embody your imperfections; you glow from the inside out. By extension you also attract people who love, respect, and appreciate your energy and essence. Knowing that everything starts with and how I perceive myself, I now feel more worthy, valuable and deserving of receiving the best that life has to offer to me. It’s my time now!
I am on a different timeline baby! I am not the same person I was a year ago, a month ago, or even a week ago. I am constantly changing, learning and growing into the person I am meant to be. My experiences are teaching me to fully embrace and live in my truth, charisma and uniqueness while I rewrite my narrative!